Happy ..

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose , you can't have everything
Don't you take changes , you might feel the pain

Don't you love in vain 'cause love won't set you free

I could stand by the side and watch this life pass me by
So unhappy , but safe as could be

So what if it hurts me ?
So what if I break down ?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground ?

I gotta my place , I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
'Cause just trying to be happy , ya
Just wanna be happy , ya

Holding on tightly , just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role , slowly disappear , oh
But all these days , they feel like they're the same
Just different faces , different names , get me out of here
But I can't stand by your side , oh no
And watch this life pass me by , pass me by

So what if it hurts me ?
So what if I break down ?
So what if this world just throws me the out edge
My feet run out of ground ?

I gotta find my place , I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
'Cause I'm just trying to be happy , oh , happy , oh

So any turns that I can't see
Like I'm a stranger on this road
Bit don't say victim , don't say anything

So what if it hurts me ?
So what if I break down ?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground ?

I gotta find my place , I wanna hear my sound
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy , oh , yeah , happy , oh , happy
I just wanna be , oh , I just wanna be happy
Oh , happy

A Valentine's Day In Solitude ..

I ,
I won't let it die ,
Blindfolded hounds ,
Chasing foxes in the mist ,
You ,
You were an opportunity ,
One that I missed ,
And I miss you ,

Ice cream cone melting ,
Drip ,
By drip ,
By drip ,
I start to fade ,
Into obscurity ,

There's no chance in forgetting ,
Why ,
I still ,
I will ,
Always wait ,
For you to be ,

My Valentine ..

Bless your heart ,
And your newborn child ,
And your good man standing next to you ,
It's still hard ,
Revelations that I find ,
Are the only things pulling me through ,

This day ,
Alone ,
Without you ..

I ,
I can't let it sink ,
Telltale signs of hopelessness ,
Comes in the form of a recluse ,
Bound to his bedroom ,
Rehashing past times and old conversations ,
The medium are the photographs ,
The culprit is you ,

There's no chance in forgetting ,
Why ,
I still ,
I will ,
Always wait ,
For you to be ,

My Valentine ...

I'm OK ..

Once upon a time there was a boy
In his early years he had to learn
How to grow up living in a war that he called home
Never know just where to turn for shelter from the storm
Hurt me to see the pain across my mother's face
Everytime my father's fist would put her in her place
Hearing all the yelling I would cry up in my room
Hoping it would be over soon

Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm OK

I often wonder why I carry all this guilt
When it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built
Shadow stir at night through a crack in the door
The echo of a broken child screaming "Please No More"
Father, don't you understand the damage you have done
To you it's just a memory, but for me it still lives on

Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so .. so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday

It's not so easy to forget
All the lines you left along her neck
When I was thrown against cold stairs
And every day I'm afraid to come home
In fear of what I might see next

Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the you gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm OK

I'm OK